Tuesday, April 28, 2009
it's the school holidays and it kinda sucks when you hear about people who are going on tours or summer exchanges overseas and stuff and you can't cos of money issues. i rmb at the beginning of the semester i was determined to do well and go overseas in year 3 to experience studying overseas when i realised halfway that it's kinda impossible cos it's gonna cost a lot. ok i don't know exactly how much it'll cost but i highly doubt i have enough in my account and i don't wish to use my parents money they aren't exactly the richest. i think supporting 3kids is serious business. haha.
sigh. sometimes i wonder whether such people know how fortunate they are to have experiences others can only dream about. and sometimes i really wish i wouldn't get so jealous cos really, i'm way more blessed than i think i am. GODHELPME.
the world is going wrong too. ok maybe it's just singapore. in a society where we place so much emphasis on education, do we stop to ask ourselves what's truely impt in our lives? is it just getting good grades? like for instance my cousin's first year birthday party was on the weekend between my exams and i didn't even think about missing it to study. but some people have told me i should've stayed home to study. seriously what's wrong with us, putting studies before family. my family comes first any day. people also tell me to prioritise. well that makes studying the last on my list.
and it sucks too, when people think i'm studying accountancy for the money/because i like to handle money. and they go on and n about how i should study smth i like/ i'm passionate about. well some of us don't have our passions come in the form of university courses, and we just have to take what's most practical. it sucks because i'm hate what i'm studying, i'm already pushing myself (2MOREYEARSONLY) and these people are just making it worst. everytime i convince myself i'm in the right course, someone comes along and starts 'nagging' and it brings me right back into depression.
haha ok i'm kidding about the depression part. i just get upset. REALLY upset. cos it's usually the people i'm closest too who tell me such things. where's the support):
ok that's all the ranting i have today. have so much on my mind now that i'm done with the exams with no job to keep me occupied. haha.
1year5months officially. how amazing. thank God(:
it's the school holidays and it kinda sucks when you hear about people who are going on tours or summer exchanges overseas and stuff and you can't cos of money issues. i rmb at the beginning of the semester i was determined to do well and go overseas in year 3 to experience studying overseas when i realised halfway that it's kinda impossible cos it's gonna cost a lot. ok i don't know exactly how much it'll cost but i highly doubt i have enough in my account and i don't wish to use my parents money they aren't exactly the richest. i think supporting 3kids is serious business. haha.
sigh. sometimes i wonder whether such people know how fortunate they are to have experiences others can only dream about. and sometimes i really wish i wouldn't get so jealous cos really, i'm way more blessed than i think i am. GODHELPME.
the world is going wrong too. ok maybe it's just singapore. in a society where we place so much emphasis on education, do we stop to ask ourselves what's truely impt in our lives? is it just getting good grades? like for instance my cousin's first year birthday party was on the weekend between my exams and i didn't even think about missing it to study. but some people have told me i should've stayed home to study. seriously what's wrong with us, putting studies before family. my family comes first any day. people also tell me to prioritise. well that makes studying the last on my list.
and it sucks too, when people think i'm studying accountancy for the money/because i like to handle money. and they go on and n about how i should study smth i like/ i'm passionate about. well some of us don't have our passions come in the form of university courses, and we just have to take what's most practical. it sucks because i'm hate what i'm studying, i'm already pushing myself (2MOREYEARSONLY) and these people are just making it worst. everytime i convince myself i'm in the right course, someone comes along and starts 'nagging' and it brings me right back into depression.
haha ok i'm kidding about the depression part. i just get upset. REALLY upset. cos it's usually the people i'm closest too who tell me such things. where's the support):
ok that's all the ranting i have today. have so much on my mind now that i'm done with the exams with no job to keep me occupied. haha.
1year5months officially. how amazing. thank God(:
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